Love Myself

Thoughts of you flood my mind
Enraged with anger, I am
For I do not miss you
Nor, do I miss the lack of love
Or, the lack of honesty.
I think of you
And wish that it would have been different
Not because I loved you, in the end,
Though, I did love you once upon a time.
Rather, I do not like failure
And this,
This was a failure.
No, I do not want you back.
No, I would not take you back.
Yet, your actions are a constant on my mind
Serving as a punishment to myself
Because for three years
My self-worth was not more, to me
And, I,
I will take responsibility for that, but
I will not take responsibility for your
Lies
Disrespectful communications
Constant removal of blame from you to me
Your inability to self-reflect, but the ability to project
Your lack of consideration
Your lack of cherishing the one you "love."
These thoughts of you are not happy sentiments.
These thoughts of you reflect my anger towards myself.
And, reminder to never
Never, make the same mistake twice.
I will not make excuses.
Nor will I accept them.
I will not look past the red-flags.
I will take note of them,
Adjust and persevere
Because I,
I, know my self-worth.
I
Now
Know
How to
Love myself.

Anew

I want to run in a field of sunflowers
Sunflowers so tall the world can't see me at all.
Getting lost, being found is all that's abound.
I want to dance in a field of sunflowers
Hidden from the glares of those discerning eyes.
Free to make the choices I desire
With out care of who will conspire.
I want to lie in a field of sunflowers
Where peace floods my internal appetite
And all the detriments of life dissipates.

New Beginnings

She flows with the wind -Capturing
moments in whirls.Touching ground
to gain moment.She glides across the ocean -
Taking delight in the thundering waves. Swimming
above the glistening water.Catching glimpses of life -
The life she had. Her glimpse disrupted -
By the whirling wind.

Show Me, Don't Tell Me

Actions are soundless words, with more
weight than any sentence. We talk our way
through silence, holding onto every
breath, forgetting the depths of our potential
when we silence our mouths. 

Lost in the Moment

A special moment in time...
Where love collides...
Energies divide...
Igniting the flame of loves inception...
Clinging to hope...
While all things go up in smoke...
Dignity remains...
It's pulsing through the veins...
Tempting the notion...
We find in an obscure devotion...
In the end we ponder...
Does all this run yonder...
In the end...
In the end what have we lost...
In the end...
Happiness is a definitive by the heart...
A vessel to govern but never to learn...
Past dissipates as beginnings infiltrate...
Hanging on a thread...
We lay naked on this bed...
Capturing moments...
Special and divine...
They fill our mind...
Promises of hope...
Discovering boundaries of desire...
Simply savoring the lost moments in time.

Comfort In You

Beauty rises in darkness.
Strength prevails in the midst of a storm.
Courage enlightens us when doubt is near.
We struggle to find our face in fear.
My heart will beat with every breathe I take.
In this storm, I find comfort knowing
All that is known,
All that is felt,
Is easily unblemished when you are here.

Confines

Defeated by boundaries
I give utterly and love detrimentally
To my core, all I endure
Shows remorse forevermore
Where is the line drawn?
Simply, I am who I am
My heart easily devoured
By every waking hour
Madness remains a constant
Filling my discourse with piles of sadness
I give utterly and love detrimentally
With all I do, and all I am
Standing unbalanced in this tainted land
Tipping on foresight
Kissed by death in hindsight
Would my course remain
If I knew this in vein
Or, is it in me to contain.